A little prayer for the Philippines

It was the longest eight days of the Philippines when Typhoon ‘Gener’ and Southwest monsoon stayed here in the country. Indeed, it was so devastating when people had to vacate their home, places because of the non stop rain.

In fact, classes had to be suspended for more than a week or seven days in some areas.

Here are some photos of our worst nightmares.

Right now, the country is in real pain. Some Filipinos go out of the streets and beg for money in order to survive. The disaster is a nightmare for a third world country. I just hope and pray that we can survive this fate. If you are reading this, please take a little prayer for those people who drowned, electrocuted, died of landslide, and those people who are in the evacuation center waiting for food and clean water.

Thank you to some of my Friends Facebook photos…

wrong decision

I know everything has its own purpose! I am in a battlefield right now. I do not know if my decision is correct. Honestly, I want to give up.

I cannot take the pressure anymore with work. there are so many requirements. I do not know if I can still hold on with this. It is not healthy anymore.

I always pray to give me more courage to hold on with what I do.

If I can get another work, I swear, I will get it even with a lower salary. At least, less work and less pressure.

The battle to be better

The feeling of rejection is a way of realizing that I am not worth it.

I feel terrible about myself. I am encountering insecurities. I always think that I cannot get what I want in this world because I am not good looking. I hate this feeling that I hate someone because he has what I don’t have.

I admit. I am not perfect. I don’t have confidence with the way I look.

In my latest Body Mass Index, it tells that I am obese. I weigh 170 pounds at an early age of 21 years old. I feel down and when I am stressed I eat a lot. I don’t know what’s with food that makes me feel fine but today I want to change things.

I want to look good and these are sets of things that I need to do in order to achieve the things that I want:

1. Feel good

2. Eat less.

3. Drink plenty of water.

4. Exercise. Go to the gym as often as possible.

5. Do not eat dinner.

6. Eat fruits and vegetables.

7. Play basketball often.

8. After eating, walk around.

9. Observe proper hygiene.

10. Disciple.

Disciple is hard. There are a lot of times that I start going on a diet but will go back with the same routines of eating what I want. It is hard to deprive yourself. Oh God. I thought before that when it was easy but it isn’t.

The process is continuous. There should be no turning back. It should be maintained.

I am a teacher. I set rules, instructions, and guidelines to my students and disciplining them is easy.

“Do this. Do that!”

Ironically, it becomes a different scenario when the person involve is me. Disciplining myself is weird because you can easily break your own rules.

But this time is different. I will create change in myself. There would be a better me. I need to do this. Discipline and attitude are needed for the process. I believe myself. The law of attraction works and I am going to start it today! There is no turning back. This is a battle inside me – feelings, emotions, and needs. Mind over matter!

With God’s help, I can do this!

Magkaibigan lang tayo???!!!

Image “Oh yes, kaibigan mo lang ako.., kaibigan mo lang ako! and im so stupid to make greatest mistake of falling in love with my bestfriend!”

At hihiramin ko muna ang ever famous na line ni Ate Jolina Magdangal nung tweetams pa siya sa pelikula at telebisyon at di pa siya gurangers. Ito ay mula sa “in Labs kita, Ok ka lang” na talaga namang pinanoood ng maraming mga hopeless romantic, taong umasa, pinaasa, asa ng asa, tanga-tanga at pinagmumukhang tanga… at proud pa sila! (***tatanggi niya yan… aminin na!)

Ewan ko ba pero uso yata ang katangahan hanggang ngayon! Naitext lang ng good night ng crush, ang rami ng nasa isip (lalo na mga babae). Di ko mabasa ang mga tao dahil napaka fast-forward mag-isip… Naitext lang, ang dami ng naisip at kinakausap ang sarili

“Naku nag-goodnight siya” (***kilig much)

“Siguro crush niya ko” (Eeeeeeeh!)

“Hmmm hindi, baka mahal niya ko!” (Aaaay, sabay kilig sa kama)

“Hala pano pag niligawan niya ko?” (naman oh… ngumingiti)

“Sasagutin ko kaya siya? (nasstress…)”

“San kaya kami lalabas?” (kinakabahan)

“Pwede ko kaya siya isama sa simba?”

“Baka naman matagal niya na kong crush” (Naman oh)

“Kailangan ko ng mag-ayos, kailan kaya siya pupunta sa bahay?” (Hala, naman e… ***ngarag)

“ Magustuhan kaya ako ng nanay at tatay niya?” (Ohmaygaaaad?!?!?!)

***hala nabaliw na si ate?

At yan ay nagsimula lang sa isang text!

“Good Night Bow”

Nakakabaliw mag-isip ng sobra. Kaya ang daming taong nasasaktan e
Siguro kung nakamamatay lang ang umasa, naku, siguro ilan na lang ang natira sa Pilipinas (***nangisay lahat sa daan, kinain ng lupa! Ginawang pataba!)

Pero kung pakikinggan naman sila, depensa nila, “ Eh mahal ko siya eh, ganun talaga pag nagmamahal, walang iniintay na kapalit, bigay lang ng bigay, kahit wala akong inaasahan, kahit alam ko na magkaibigan lang kami, kahit meron siyang iba, andito lang ako para sa kanya”

At may gustong sabihin sayo si Maricel Soriano
“ Ikaw ang maganda. Ikaw ang matalino. Ikaw ang paborito ni Itay. Malandi ka! Haliparot!”
– in Inagaw mo Ang Lahat Sa Akin

Hahaha! Hindi naman masamang magmahal pero nagiging masama kung hindi ka niya mahal. Yung tipong alam mong wala kang mapapala pero ayaw mo rin bumitaw. Tandaan mo na maraming mga taong “paasa.” Napakagaling magpaasa. (***Akala mo naman maganda o gwapo, akala mo naman makinis kung umarte… kala mo ganda ganda ng balat, kala mo ambango para magpaasa).

Maraming taong nagpapaasa dahil marami rin taong umaasa. Hangga’t hindi ka bumibitaw, hinahayaan mo lang siyang saktan ka! At ang pinakamasakit non, nag-aantay ka lang sa wala. Gaano kasakit ang magmakaawa para mahalin ka ng taong mahal mo na may mahal ng iba at itinuturing ka lang na kaibigan? Gaano kasakit na lumalabas kayo pero magkaibigan lang kayo at palaging may limitasyon ang pag-asa sa kanya? Gaano kasakit ang alam mong hindi magiging kayo?

Kung magkaibigan kayo pero mahal mo siya at di ka niya mamahalin, kailangan mo ng bumitaw. Hindi sa lahat ng panahon, kukuha ng martilyo ang mga kaibigan mo para gamitin sayo. Nakakasawa din. Ikaw nga, nagsasawa sa paulit-ulit na ulam, pelikula, palabas, at mga gamit. Bakit hindi ka magsawa sa pagiging tanga. Ano ginagawa mo na yang career? Aba, gusto mo yata gawan ka ng monumento at lagyan ng sampaguita para tanghalin kang dakilang martir.

Minsan ka ng nasaktan, Tama na! kung ayaw niya, eh di wag! Wag na wag mong hahayaan na mawalan ka ng kompiyansa sa sarili mo dahil nanghihingi ka na lang ng limos na pagmamahal.Kung gusto mong magmove on. Move on. Mahirap naman talaga e. Walang perpektong proseso para gawin yun. Malamang kahit sinumpa mo na yong taong iyon, minura mura mo na, — eh tinitingnan mo pa rin siya sa facebook, twitter, multiply, o kahit san pa!

Kung gusto mong magmove on, burahin mo siya sa facebook, o kaya block mo, magpalit ka ng sim, wag kang makinig ng nakakalungkot na songs, wag mo na siyang pag-usapan, wag ka na din magparinig sa twitter, at higit sa lahat, magdasal ka! Hindi mo ba alam na ang tagal tagal ka na niyang inaantay para kausapin mo siya! Nagtatampo na nga siya dahil puro cellphone at mouse ang hawak mo e. Hindi mo ba naisip na di ka niya iniiwan? Na andiyan lang naman talaga siya!

Tandaan mo: walang perpektong buhay. Isang araw, masasaktan ka, iiyak, magmumukmok sa kwarto, hindi kakain, at lahat ng bagay para mag-isa na pwedeng gawin. Pero alam mo na yun din ang dahilan ng Panginoon para mangusap sa’yo. Alam niya na yan din ang dahilan para maging matatag at matapang ka. Diyan ka huhugot ng lakas. Diyan ka tatapang. Sa buhay natin, kapag mahina ka, tatapak-tapakan ka lang kaya mabuti ng nasasaktan ka ngayon dahil diyan ka titibay.

Ngayon kung pinapaasa ka, nilalandi ka, nilalambing ka pero alam mong magkaibigan lang kayo, alam mo na kung pano ang gagawin.

Gusto kong hiramin ang sinabi sa pelikula

“NO ONE CAN HURT YOU WITHOUT YOUR CONSENT”  – Princess Diaries

Ikaw ang kumokontrol ng damdamin mo! Wag mong hayaang may pumasok sa buhay mo at gawin kang tanga!

Ikaw ang bida ng sarili mong storya

Marahil ang pinakamasarap na pakiramdam ay ang magmahal. Yung tipong sobra kang masaya, ngumingiti kahit wala namang ginagawa, kinikilig minsan, tapos nawawala problema, inspired. Di mo alam na naaadik ka na pala kakatext sa kanya. Yung tipong di ka naman nagloload dati, biglang unli ka na palagi!

Siguro natry mo na din mag unlicall at unlitext tapos lahat na napag-usapan niyo na. Masaya ka din kapag narinig mo siyang tumawa. Masaya ka pag nakita mo siyang nakatingin sayo at nakangiti. Hindi mo mapaliwanag yung pakiramdam na tipong mabait ka na sa lahat ng tao. Ang gaan gaan ng pakiramdam mo na tipong masaya ka kasi may nagpapasiya sayo.

Hay aminin mo? Masarap naman talaga yung pakiramdam. Yung kahit hindi “kayo” ay sobrang lambing niyo sa isa’t isa. Kunyare naghahanap ng ‘bestfriend’ pero kinikilig naman sa lahat ng bagay na gawin niya. Ang saya lang ng pakiramdam ng kahit di naman nakakatawa yung biro niya pero natatawa ka na din kasi ang cute ng smile niya.

Totoo naman, masarap magmahal! Walang makakapantay kapag mahal mo siya at mahal ka din niya! Tapos pag narealize niyo na mahal niyo na ang isa’t-isa magiging kayo na. “Official” kumbaga! Di mo mapaliwanag yung pakiramdam na kayo na talaga.

Sobrang sarap na ng text niyo at usapan sa isa’t isa

“Mahal po kita”

“Anu ka ba? Mas mahal kaya kita”

“Weee? Bakit mo naman ako mahal?”

“Kasi mahal kita. J”

“Ikaw talaga! O Sige gudnyt na a”

“Cge, tulog na tayo! Magkikita din naman tayo sa panaginp e”

Tapos Sobrang saya niyo pa kasi kahit wala naman kayong pera kapag lumalabas ay okay lang. Kahit Jolibee lang basta kasama ka! Sabay pa kayong magsimba kahit di naman kayo talagang palasimba… Ang pinakamasayang part sa inyo yung “Ama Namin” na kasi maghahawak ng kamay at yung “Peace be with you” kasi magki-kiss kayo!

Sobrang sarap lang ng pakiramdam na may nag-aalala sayo. Hindi mahihiya na sabihin sa ibang tao na mahal ka.

Totoo nga, ang magmahal at mahalin ang pinakamsarap na pakiramdam sa mundo. Bawat isa ay may nakalaang tao na magmamahal sa atin higit pa sa kaya nating ibigay! Kung di mo pa nahahanap ang para sayo, bakit ka magmamadali? Darating at darating yan. Sabi nga nila “In God’s perfect time.” Maniwala ka, darating siya! Kung nasaktan ka sa isa, hayaan mo yun. Ang mahalaga natuto ka sa kanya at pasalamat ka at naging parte siya ng buhay mo. May dahilan kung bakit siya binigay.

May dahilan lahat ng bagay. Sa isang masamang pangyayari, may nakatagong dahilan. Wag kang mag-alala, ikaw ang bida ng sarili mong storya. Ikaw ang nagsasalaysay, ikaw ang gumagawa, ikaw ang maraming linya. Nagkataon lang na maraming mga tauhan at kasali ang mga ex mo dun! Darating din ang isang taong kukumpleto ng kulay sa storya ng iyong buhay!

***Para sa mga taong alam kong nag-aantay… Tandaan niyo, darating yun!

Waiting for love…

Perhaps, I do not know actually how I wanted to introduce what I want to say. That is why I have it in free flow writing. Nevertheless, I will keep it as formal as possible.

I know I am of legal age. I am 21. I can even build a family. I know that. But I am still waiting and waiting is really not a virtue for me. Oh God. I’m still single.

Seriously, when I was in college, I don’t think relationship lasts for a very long time – in short, playtime. No commitment. No strings attached. You know what I mean. Your just two people having a good time. Have you watched the movie Unofficially Yours? Maybe, that’s the game of the society today. Nobody wants to be hurt. Hence, nobody wants to settle for commitment. I don’t even try to analyze what’s the dilemma of the real world today but I think that’s it. Nobody wants to be hurt.

I am not trying to be clean here. Indeed, I played the game. Mind you, I played it very well. It’s like having royal flashes in poker. I was hurt before and that made me a better person to be in the society. It’s really survival of the fittest. If you are weak, then you’ll be an outcast. the thing is, I do not want to settle for that king of system again.

As I am trying to delve with the situation, I thought of it and perhaps these are the repercussion of the things I had done. I am playing with hearts before. I could still remember the girl who cried at United Nations Avenue because she thinks that we were forever but I am not for that (since I’m still young at that time). People are looking at us but I don’t want to hold it back again.

Reality knocks me up. I do not want that to happen again. I am seriously taking it to the manner I want to. I want to love that will last long. However, I keep on asking myself, is there someone out there who is into serious relationship? Perhaps, there is but it would take time for me to look for her.

Indeed, it is a never ending saga that continues to be unknown for a while. I just literally hope for the best. It has been 2 years that I am single but I am waiting. Patience, as they always say, is a virtue. At this age, wherein I am getting mature, I do not settle for plays anymore. I want to be committed. With the help of God. I can find one.

Pinoy Big Brother Teen Edition 4 hits twitter worldwide

Pinoy Big Brother Teen Edition 4

Manila Philippines – Pinoy Big Brother Teen Edition Season 4 is considered the most controversial show in Philippine primetime today that hits twitter and facebook with numerous reactions and negative comments coming from people of all ages, whether teens or not.

People were shocked with how teenagers act inside Big Brother’s house even if it is just first week. Indeed, they showed that teenagers today were easily attracted with each other not minding that there are cameras all throughout the house and being seen in the national television.

Revelations of the housemates made it shocking for people watching the show in terms of their relationships.

Clodet is just 13 who admittedly had 4 boyfriends. She said that all of them were serious relationships.

Mariz is just 16 but confidently said that she was engaged.

Indeed, teenagers today are not boxed with the concept of the past generations with the way they act and talk.

In the first week, Karen showed affection towards Kit that it remained for a little while.

Yves showed affection towards Myrtle even if he has a girlfriend outside the house.

After Kit went out, Karen is now attached to Ryan and he thought that they are in a relationship.

A lot of people are saying negative comments about the show since they are not acting according to their age. But the question here is that aren’t they just representing the people in the society.

This reality show Big Brother is a representation of what is really happening in the society. The process of flirting just occurs naturally. The series of smiles, flirting, texting, relationship, holding hands, relationship, that leads to sex.

Sex may be a big word for some, but in present times, I doubt it. Sex is just a normal word for teenagers just for them to show and prove their love to each other, deteriorating the sanctity of marriage.

The sad news is the facts that tell us that teenage pregnancies in the Philippines surged by 70 percent over one decade, according to the United Nation Population Fund Agency (UNFPA)

Ugochi Daniels, UNFPA country representative, said the rising number of teenage pregnancies in the country is an area of concern that the agency is giving serious attention to, exposing as it does adolescent girls (10 to 19 years old) to high risk.

The sexual revolution rises up obtaining many teenagers getting involve with this thing not minding with the repercussions of their actions.

Filipino teens get a higher exposure to sex from the Internet, magazines, TV shows, movies and other media than decades ago, yet without any corresponding increase in information on how to handle the input. So kids are pretty much left to other kids for opinions and value formation when it comes to sex.

News combined with Statistics would not lie that there is a drastic and dramatic change in the status quo that is very alarming. Proper information should be utilized in order to have a solution with the problem of the country in terms of early pregnancy. government should provide ways and solution to filter the media in all forms to lessen the numbers shown. If they will not do anything about it, I would not be surprised if we will just see a13 year old girl having two children and being proud of it.

Indeed, the reality show has been an eye opener that there is a problem happening. No doubt that it received a lot of negative feedbacks and even hitting it worldwide through twitter condemning those teenagers being showcased in the show.

Some say that they are not good examples for the people watching it.

I disagree.

In fact, these teenagers are examples of the teenagers in the society.

What you see in PBB is also what you see to many teenagers nowadays. So why blame them?

Quite ironic

http://www.interaksyon.com/article/30434/teenage-pregnancies-in-philippines-rise-70-percent-over-10-years—unfpa

http://showbizandstyle.inquirer.net/lifestyle/lifestyle/view/20080614-142572/Teen-pregnancies-in-the-Philippines